Let me share a little something about me that I have to live with everyday and how I've turned it to be the most positive thing in my life. Also, how it explains my vision on life and who I am today.
My curse? I don't have one, although some people would think so...My life has never been a "long fleuve tranquille" in other words, life is not a bed of roses and I understood that as soon as I was six years old when I witnessed my mom hearing the news that her son, my brother, had passed. This article is not to make you cry or bring sadness in your lovely day, if anything, it's to brighten it. Like my friend said to me yesterday, "if you're not involved in births, you're involved in funerals" and that's so dramatically true. My life has always been on the edge of absolute happiness or sadness but since I handle and process both with some kind of unbelievable, abnormal strength, I realized people count on me in those moments to take their hand and walk with them...in whatever they're going through. That's okay because if I can change one's life for the better, I will.
Here's a little glimpse of what changed me, forever.
He was Blond, blue eyes...gorgeous, young, healthy man with a kindness that was hard to believe. Always smiling and simply genuine and real. When he'd walk into a room, everyone would feel his energy and stare at his good looks. He was so humble that It made him almost annoying. How can someone have it all and be so present in other's lives by being so pure? One day, we got into a little argument, a day had passed after our argument and he came back to my residential area to see me and to talk...I bumped into my friend about a minute after she had seen him, she said that he had to tell me something important. So I ran, I ran so fast to catch him...and there he was walking down the street, as soon as I tried to yell his name out, I thought to myself "No, make him work for it. It's not that easy. let's play a little...." it was almost like a little devilish voice had gotten so loud in my head. So I watched him walk away, his naked back in his bathing suit and the striking image of his beautiful tattoo...
That was the last time I ever saw him. He passed a few days later in an accident. I'll never know what he had to say. Sit on this, just for a second. Close your eyes and imagine.
Yes I was young but what I learned from this is essential. I hear a lot of times people that say "that will never happen to me." Well, It happened to me, and this is why I want some of us to realize how important it is to:
I found a way to turn tragedies into the most positives outcome in my life, I have to learn from them, even out of respect for the angels looking out for me. My mom has always warned me she'd be gone one day...Now she is and my strength is to live through her and remember what she taught me about grieving and how to become a better person from it. Life is mysterious in a lot of ways and we have to live through every moments by not letting the characters we've created get the best of who we truly are. I'm that girl who's suffered a lot but framed those suffering with petals of roses, one way or another. Be that person for your loved ones, show them who you truly are....because yes, life is short.