Healing comes from loving yourself, I now understand the meaning of it deeper than just the obvious surface mirrored reflection on a daily basis. After doing a lot of work on myself, being patient and being kind to my soul, I understand that nothing but myself should be my source of happiness. That's only when you feel happy and in love with your life that you have unexpired time & love to spread to others.
I always accepted myself in whatever shape my body was but I was never feeling good, I was tired, moody, bloated, never really getting results when I would workout and I had a bad case of Hypoglycemia that kept me from doing anything that demanded some effort. I thought I had a problem with my Thyroid until someone pointed out that it was all probably food related. BINGO! indeed....I found out I was completely intolerant to gluten. I had to change my entire diet...journey on the other side...on the healthy side!!!
As you may know, there's no magical pill, the magical pill is eating healthy, drink tons of water and you have to be motivated to make a change and being patient. Getting results when you eat healthy and exercise are a given. You just have to be patient anf have fun with it. I have now started my little lifestyle about 5 months ago and I lost 14 lbs and went from a size 6 to a 0. Some will say that I look too skinny or too fat or whatever they'd like to say; we all have a right to an opinion. I just know that I feel amazing and my energy is plenty, also my hypoglycemia has vanished. Here's the trick, create yourself a lifestyle that can be sustainable. Diets are shit, there's no need to drive yourself nuts dieting and losing it over a doublecheeseburger. Pretty much use your common sense, what's nourishing and what's not. Your body will start craving all the good stuff once you start giving it just that.
Here's the easy way to do this: cook, don't buy anything packaged unless you eat out so save money and get your ass to your kitchen. Drink a lot of water and watch your salt! I barely need salt now and whenever I eat out, my mouth almost shatters at the amount of salt that is used and my heart starts beating fast! (my dad would be so thrilled about this right now as he used to be horrified at how much salt I'd use)
what a day looks like and what do I eat:
morning: Coffee - 2 tsp of brown sugar, almond milk.
Banana pancakes, 2 eggs and 1 banana (mash the banana, mix with eggs add cinnamon and cook like you would with pancakes. magic) I add lemon and raw organic honey. delicious
smoothie brand PHOOD with 1 banana, cinnamon, raw organic honey, a bit of coconut oil, almond milk.
Cottage cheese with almonds, 1 banana, raw organic honey.
Lunch: Lentils with chicken and hummus, honey goat cheese, cherry tomatoes and a little bit of olive oil. I add honey everywhere....I'm a honey Freak....you don't have to be, I just love the sweet and salty taste.
Cooked kale with Tofu, garlic, tomatoes and steamed broccolini.
Little munchies: almonds or banana with peanut butter or cottage cheese with honey or apples, juices......
Dinner: Steamed salmon with mashed sweet potatoes
black beans pasta with zucchini, cherry tomatoes, sprinkled honey goat cheese and garlic.
Eggplant with chicken breast.
and cup of soothing tea, chamomile, dandelion, peppermint before i go to sleep.
This is just an example, I get creative but I mostly steam everything, add garlic, parsley, and some delicious ingredients for your body.
Just have fun with it and treasure your body and what you put in it instead of treating it like a trash bag. Nourish it!
as far as working out,
15 to 20 min cardio- 2 times to three times a week. Can include treadmill or these suckers:
Jumprope 100 to start and 100 to finish.
resistance exercises with weight lifting and ball - choose or four different exercises, 15 reps. 3 sets.
balancing exercise on the half blue ball. Like squats with a weight.
and have fun making some research on instagram for new ideas. There's some amazing accounts with dope videos to get inspired from.
ask someone to workout with you and keep track of your results! so much more fun.
don't forget to allow your body to rest!!! that's how muscles recover and shape....
Here's a before and after picture....it's difficult to show it but at the same time I always loved my body no matter what. I'm happier now, mind & body. Now as i know some of you are wanting to make a change as well, this is why I'm writing this article, feel free to ask me questions!! And now you know what to do tomorrow morning....up, up, go on and love yourself and give some loving to your body and to who you truly are!!
The most dangerous human beings are the ones who have no interest in expanding their brain. I call them the "small brain" people. They're the ones who are stuck in their own ways from the day they were born, they believe that where they come from or reside is the best that they can possibly ever get and never questioned what it's like on another continent.
Perception of yourself from another country, another way of life, customs, beliefs and way of being is life changing. Acquiring the respect of appreciating that you're not alone on this planet is a gift of life. Understanding and learning why other people live a certain way, believe in certain things and opening yourself to experience these different aspects is putting your human life to its full potential. What mattered to you yesterday, perhaps don't matter today because you've dived in an ocean bigger than your little city and danced with other living creatures or you visited a two thousand years old village and witnessed people still living in purity; their face is beauty of art, a map, a bible. Their surroundings is so different than yours and the whispers, insights and secrets that these people and places holds for your growth is to admire and it's intoxicating.
Some of us are stuck in our own spiral, our own truth that we create and rarely attempt to "proof test" because we are so sure that what we are doing is the best until nothing changes and others will perceive something completely different of who you are because you're not exposing greatness, you're exposing the same crap over & over again and it gets old. Our vision is poisoned by sex, drugs, money and social media and we get lost. I'm a victim but I'm also a mind craving type of person seeking other truths, philosophies and picturesque experiences.
I have experienced more than once walking out of my bubble and getting a big slap in the face and realizing how much of a loser I am, a schmuck. My interests are all the wrong ones, I'm worried about the insignificant things and what I own in my heart is locked in by the fear of being real.
That's how you change, how you become strong, how you actually become "weird" to the "small brains" out there, how you read philosophy or psychology and understand it, how you can break your selfish ways and learning that by living with others is expanding your ability to do great things.
My point is, go out there, it is not a waste of time to travel, to be by yourself, to read and to observe. It can be pricey, indeed, but there are endless ways to find a way to save money and go conquer. Visit
she has the best tips for how to make it happen and her experiences are enlightening. It will make you want to pack and go.
Stay classy, learn, talk about something else than genitals, reinvent yourself endlessly so the rest of the world will admire you.
you are welcome to visit my father's Flickr account for empowering, raw, beautiful moments captured.
This voice in my head shouted, all of a sudden, these three words : "live a little." I have been so confined in my own ways and molded into a routine that I forgot to take risks, to have spontaneous adventures and just live. It was like an outer body experience where you witness your other self that is bringing you down and you decide to boot her away! go away! I've realized that worrying my life away is not going to do me any good and I'm only gaining wrinkles. I'd rather gain these wrinkles because I played in the waves for too long. Of course don't forget your sunscreen...but live a little!!!
I don't want to work a job I hate just to pay bills and somehow still suffocate because i'm unhappy and surprisingly still broke.
I don't want to beat myself up to do the best that I can do at something that I don't give a shit about. As "bratty" as it might sound, I just don't want to do things that I don't want to do that will result in me waking up 10 years from now and wonder...what now? So I take risks, I quit jobs, I get new jobs because guess what, you will find another job if you have/need to and I still manage to enjoy life.
Some of us don't have everything planned out, perhaps it's a luxury and we take it for granted by being worried of the unknown...of what's next...we don't see the train rails so it freaks us out and instead of going forward we're motionless. Like my father said to me once "It tells me more about your character when I see you fight for something you hate for the security rather than move on and take risks and believe!" He's right...I don't want to be that person that complains everyday and doesn't do anything about it. Good energy is contagious, the more you put out there, the more you'll receive in mysterious ways.
At least I force myself, no more monologues with Mr. Anxiety trying to tell I'm not good enough or social anxiety...I'm not the most comfortable around people but now I tell myself, nope, get out...GO! get out of your comfort zone...be uncomfortable, get to know yourself in that circumstance and every time I do I come back to myself feeling satisfied, accomplished and my soul is nourished. Basically, I'm battling against myself.
Yes, I'm worried about my future, yes I'm worried about money, yes I'm worried that I'll just end up single and a loser, yes I'm worried that I'll never become the great actress that I can be...but these things are not in my control if I just worry about them, work extensive amount of hours keeping me further to my goals, do nothing about it and let myself drown in depression because i'm unhappy for obvious reasons. It's a vicious cycle that I refuse to fall into. I've been victim of it and all I ended up with was a waste of time, debts, sickness, severe depression, no growth.
I sit down and brainstorm ideas that I have, that hopefully will come to life with the work that I put into it. It won't happen overnight and I have to believe that it will all be okay.
Cheers to living a little! go out, go to the movies, go lay on a piece of grass to see the stars, go and cook your best meal, go and dive in the ocean, go take surf classes, go travel by yourself, go do something you've never done before and also work towards your goals. Just don't lose yourself...don't forget to live.
I want to laugh, I want sun, playfulness and good vibes to flush away the negativity and let go of things that I can't control and let time decide for me when the answers to my questions are ready.
The older I get, the more sensitive I am becoming. Everything that I thought I had survived are sometimes back haunting me in certain things that I do. Somehow, fears and insecurities have created themselves and it's scary.
I realized that I should've been more careful at a younger age of who I decided to give my heart to, we all have our attachment style from growing up with our parents that determines who we are; Anxious, secured, avoidant. Also, we all have different levels of how much abuse we're willing to take, the funny thing is that no is one to blame but yourself.
I blame myself for letting a man break my heart and emotionally abuse me repeatedly, weekly, monthly for many years with no apparent reason than him just being "fucked up" and dragging me into his darkest places. I let that emotional roller coaster affect me because I was too intoxicated with trying to save him and believing that I deserved that kind of abuse. I was never showered with unconditional love, frankly it scares the crap out of me, but I now understand how I should've protected my heart because you're not always going to be superwoman and it's important for young teenagers to be more aware of what they accept or who they choose to be with.
The reason why I should've protected myself is because now patterns from traumatic experiences are left with me when in another relationship and it's so unfair to the other person. Have you ever had a dream of someone you love doing something really hurtful and when you wake up you're actually mad at them? Well, there's times where you can't help associating relationships and their outcomes...you want to avoid the same thing to happen...before it even happened or could ever happen...Therefore, it creates confusion, pain and anger.
it takes a lot to be aware of yourself and entangle yourself from bad habits, but trying and confronting the issue with your reflection and breaking your patterns to its core step by step is the best thing you can do. It will take some time. It's like taking a new breath of oxygen and making the promise to not let fears get in the way anymore and not sabotage what you have, because you're worth it and what you have is worth it too.
You can never know what it feels like until you've gone through it, and that is not held against you but sometimes a little common sense goes a long way to not stir more uncontrollable, unidentifiable feelings. When someone just found out about a death of a loved one, everything becomes sore, fragile, your words are not as casual anymore and they sure resonate.
The irony is that there is not a lot you can say, but they are things you can simply avoid...and it's not rude for you not to say them...if anything it's the opposite.
What to say is actually replaced by simply being present...Being thoughtful, a hand, an eye contact, a touch and silence! yes, silence...is therapeutic.
Get out of your ways to avoid not understanding, in a deeper sense, what this person is going through at a very time sensitive moment where a lot of your survival instincts, hurt and disbelief are switched on. No one is asking you to awaken emotions but just think through of what feels right to do and say and what doesn't.
We all have our insecurities and the goal is to overcome them and realize that they are produced in the first place from the desire to please others. You're not getting these 11 inches extensions for yourself, you're not painting your face with a crazy amount of make up for yourself and you are surely not dressing in a very sexual way to turn yourself on. Let's be real. Society projects an idea of perfection at all times which triggers insecurities in all of us, it's only natural.
It is important to love yourself just the way you are and perform perfection by being YOU, Confidence makes every inches of your body and soul the most charming tool to please yourself and others. We do have animal instincts and we are made to seduce intellectually, physically and emotionally. The pretense of being someone else by unnecessary extravagant options to make yourself look less possibly human thanks to our Photoshop, social media and apps that makes you believe the unbelievable is only going to soothe you for a small amount of time until the mask falls off.
It is more exhausting for me to spend time of pretending to "look like a better version of me" than just being myself. Take care of your body, of your skin, of you hair and nails by relying on natural alternatives. Whatever it is that makes you think that you are not enough is a scam. You are enough. You are you and the insane part is that it's not that common anymore so go ahead and be original, natural, open, organic.
Don't complain of not finding a decent partner to treat you the way you should be treated when you're confused with who you are and scared to be who you truly are. Natural lips, breast, hair, nails, ass....is OKAY! I have my little insecurities like everyone else but I love myself, and not in pretentious way, just in a way that we should all accept what we have to deal with. I wake up and go to bed with the same face and when you do it for YOUR-SELF, someone will love you for everything that you are beyond the looks.
good ingredients for hair mask: coconut oil- vitamin E- olive oil- egg- Argan oil- Castor oil and take Biotin for growth.
skin- vitamin E- coconut oil-lemon-avocado-honey.
Ph balance and relaxing Baths ingredients: Epsom Salt- Baking soda -essential oil (lavender, eucalyptus)
You can find detailed post on my instagram account @jewelsbarzman also, here's a list below of the prodcuts I use.
There's so many "types" of relationships that you have to go through to really be able to understand the one you're in. To be in love with someone, in reality, is an everyday evolution of your feelings, emotional surprises, disappointments and so on...Do you ever ask yourself, why are you in love with that person?
Well, today I can give you 1000 reasons set and stone of why it wasn't the guy himself that I loved but more my projections of what I wish he could be or what I wish our relationship could be.
Here's the thing, a lot of women think that they are in love but they are actually "tortured" by not having what they want in that particular relationship so they create projections of hopes, beliefs and wishes of how it should be. The trigger to that are often loneliness, daddy issues...(sorry i'm not sorry), not being able to stay single and desperately needing male presence and affection. The problem is that you will drive the other person away because your projections tends to advance your feelings at full speed, meanwhile your guy is still getting used to the idea of you and you're like..where's my ring? It doesn't work like that and he will run...not to the man cave honey...but to the man's unicorn land and believe me you're never getting the address to that one.
As a human being, it is quite irrational to fall in love with someone who's not giving you anything to built a loving relationship with, before even getting to that stage, a loving relationship takes time, comfort, intimacy,disagreements, agreements, laughter and communication, genuine communication. When you don't have these things to hold on to built your "love me" case to the jury, you basically don't make any sense and your human behavior underlies emotional issues.
I remember once, dating this man that ultimately now that I look back, knew nothing about. He wasn't very nice, pushed me away and what I really thought I enjoyed about him were my own fantasies of him...I was so sure that perhaps I'd wake up one morning with some superwoman magic powder to blow in his face and make him fall for me...obviously, it didn't work out between us :-P
Even though these feelings, which I thought were true feelings, they made my mind go crazy, they brought pain and I didn't understand what was happening. I was facing my own demons and hoping that his soul would help me, that he'd bring everything that I've always desired...meanwhile the fucker lived his life peacefully and good for him because he knew we weren't meant to be, my mistake was that I took it personal and fought for something that In time, revealed itself has meaningless.
We all know those quotes, that are quite cheezzzyy "Love like it's your last day" or "enjoy it while you can" I mean we've heard them...but do we really grasp what it really means? Do we feel it vibrate in us when we hear it, and more importantly, do we live by these rules? unfortunately, we don't and that's fortunately because of our thoughts that are not reminding us at every heartbeat that it could end. Only Sundays do that...I hate Sundays.
Although, people who have experienced traumatic, sudden loss will see the world differently and their behavior will change...towards everything. Only someone who's received that electric shock can fully understand what I mean and that's why it's unfair: If you have someone close to you who's been through that kind of pain, really try to understand what is going on if certain situations that you are confronted with are confusing to you because of their behavior.
I've lost quite a few people in my life, they meant the world to me... each one of them were in a blink of an eye...I will always remember the phone call, or the screams, or how I felt in my body at that moment...like an outer body experience where you observe yourself being destroyed by uncontrollable, burning, paralyzing pain, the world starts spinning and everything shatters..and then something magical happens...your survival instinct. You become the strongest person on this earth, after the numbness of every single part of your body, you get up and do everything that needs to be done...if it's a close relative, you might end up having a lot of paperwork and other dumb stuff to take care of..because life can suck like that which, funny enough, I was thankful for because I didn't have the opportunity to THINK...after that came the process of grieving.
When that's all done and we're back to moving on with our lives, who are we?
we're pretty much paranoid...that's a fact my little bunnies, we all of a sudden have new scenarios in our heads under the "catastrophic" section. It can get quite creative. I'm kidding, but i'm not really... and that's because we've had a taste of some kind of Fucked up reality...and my oh my it's bitter.
On the brighter side, we're pretty laid back little fuckers who could care less if they get a parking ticket...get the idea? the little things, don't matter anymore.
we're the ones who will wake up on a random day and cry because of a wave of sadness, grief and the inability to see the person anymore is too painful. for some reason, on that day...why? who the fuck knows. They're called waves...like an emotional roller coaster, that goes by waves. Better get your surfing gear my friend.
we're the ones who are fearful of certain dates because there are a reminder...
we're the ones who are scared that anything could happen to the ones we love...Our fears have shifted to another reality, another spectrum of life, we value life and we realize how quickly everything can change. We absolutely don't mean to freak anyone out or bring the blues but...the worst happened to us and we've dealt with it. We're just soldiers who are surviving. You can't erase a scar...you can only heal it.
We have changed in some ways because of the aftermath from coping, for example, I know for a fact that I get worried easily, I don't mean to and I am very aware it can get annoying..hihiihihihi oh well, *brush ma shoulders'off* so for the people who faced traumatic losses, let alone gruesome details that they have to cope with and just the simple question "why?" that will resonate quite often... it is imperative that if you haven't experience anything like that, thank Gawddd, that you try to understand how a person would be different from the others and why is that.
A curtain has been closed or opened depending on your way to see things...to me, it opened...I understand more what it means to love someone, to touch them, feel them, listen to their heartbeat..observe life, the beauty of some places, sunrise, ocean...again, of course it's cheezy, until you've faced the unimaginable, then it's just a way of living. Living is the key word here.
Let's imagine changing who we are was as easy as walking into a store across the street, well, let's just say we would all look alike because what we want is always the same thing: perfection. What is perfection? and why are we getting so obsessed with it? I think that the magazines, facebook and instagram are quite the little demons in this generation.
The truth is all of the magazines and social media are an embellishment of what we think our lives "should be" and that is really sad, our life shouldn't be or should be a certain way. We should just live our lives the way we want without having society telling us we don't live it the right way. It's quite difficult to run away from the desire to be prettier, skinnier, wealthier, happier, funnier, healthier, hotter...when that's all we see. It's like a frozen meal beautifully placed in a plate that makes your mouth water because it looks appealing and... that's about it.
Social media has become a measuring scale for beauty & some, It's really hard to compete, practically impossible. The superwoman and superheroes on my feed are out of this world, hey buddy, you ever get any pimples? hey girl, you ever get bloated...like ever? a little? are you even human? that's what crosses my mind at times. I'm actually quite aware that who I am, will never change. Yes, i'd love to be taller...damn it, I should've had more soup growing up...oh and my hips..they are like these students that attended school E-V-E-R-Y-D-A-Y. bitches be present! what can I say? I love my bread, and Photoshop makes me want to give it up sometimes...NO! I SAY NO!
Basically, our virtual life is so damn perfect, I mean if we didn't know any better we'd assume you're never working, making tons of money, living in the Caribbeans 11 months on 12, you never gain weight, you sure don't have hormonal issues and you got the perfect relationship on a 365 days basis. I mean shit, what's your secret?
For instance, some instagram accounts are very impressive, take @hunnies_allure, amazing account regrouping all the most gorgeous girls of the instagram...well, go ahead and swim in paradise but ladies, don't ever feel self-conscious or not beautiful enough to truly be yourself. With that said I have asked the owner of the page, the one known as Mr. Grey ;) to give his view as he is well aware of how social media portrays body image:
Body image is a complicated aspect of the self-concept that concerns an individual's perceptions and feelings about their body and physical appearance (Cash & Pruzinsky, 2002) Now, I consider myself aptly positioned to view such a shrouded topic- I mean- I'm a male, run a successful Instagram page and sex, it sells right? 2014 has seen an explosion of the need to 'fit in' and conversely, an implosion of confidence and expectations.
I meet women of different ilk, different shapes and different sizes- and I can honestly say that most males won't know the 'perfect' shape....simply because there are so many damn variables! Shit, remember when Victoria's Secret said Kate Upton was too "fat" to model for them? Now voted sexiest woman alive- Seems the so called experts got it very wrong.
Women: you need to remember that you won't be everyone's taste, hell why would you want to be?! Do I like fit bodies? Yes I do because I am an avid weight trainer but I am also a fan of anyone that looks after their health - the sexiness comes from confidence and how YOU project it. IG is littered with implants, butt fillers and the like- I have nothing at all against them but to assume you will achieve results with a magic pill or one exercise is naive to say the least. If you look in the mirror and feel insecure- that's fine, we all do- Porn has guys thinking only a lamppost for a penis will suffice your everyday partner- See what I mean? The question is what you do about it. Worrying about how a paid model looks in her pics will only lead to a pool of anxiety and probable psychosis (studies prove this) when you know its the pic chosen from 20 selfies taken at that time!
I've seen this blog owner with and without makeup and I can assure you- as a guy I was refreshed to see how pretty a face could be left natural- so know this- you are stunning as standard, you're obligation is to you yourself, to become the best version of yourself for YOU!
Sex sells in the short run...confidence will sell itself long term.
Mr. Grey. @Hunnies_allure
The standard of beauty is having a very flat stomach, huge boobs, long skinny legs, skull looking-like cheekbones and big fat lips... what would Audrey Hepburn say?
Now, a lot of girls do look like that, some are highly criticized, one said " I know i'm not everyone cup of tea and that's okay." I agree with her, although my thought is, what pushed you to get double D'S in the first place? I can't imagine growing up and naturally wanting two huge balloons graft on my upper body unless it came from a false very convincing influence that the new generation is surrounded by.
Bottom line, perfection comes in different flavors, indeed, although no one actually looks like there retouched, filtered, angled picture and I have pictures on my own account where I even surprise myself! ha! well, look at that! I don't look the same at all when I wake up or when I walk down the street! believe me. I am damn photogenic, i'll give you that but so are all these girls and guys. Some of us are blessed in a lot of different aspects but that doesn't make you less or better than anyone in this world to the point of changing yourself to look pretty much like plastic. Learn to love yourself, the real you, the natural you. People will admire you more for being you than trying to be something you're not. You don't need to tweak your appearance because of a snapshot of someone's reality, imagine all the things that a single snapshot can hide.
J. & Mr. Grey
Here's a few of my favorite that I use daily to keep a natural look: